Firm

I believe life is about learning. You learn to be a better you. You learn to correct your own mistake. For me, everyone has a motto or a goal that they keep on reminding inside their heart to improve themselves. A motto is very important to boost your strength and eliminate your weakness.

I always want to challenge myself so that I am satisfied of what I have done. In the past few years, the motto that I had set was " Dare to Do". After all this days I had challenge myself to dare to accept any obstacle and try to conquer them. I have not yet 100% achieve the motto, but at least I found a braver me. And now, it is the time to move on to next level.

Last night before I slept, I had a usual day-dreaming. After thinking for quite a long time, I decided to change my motto. And this time, it is more challenging and harder to achieve. It only consist of one word : FIRM.

Why Firm? It is simple, I am not firm.

First is decision making. I hated myself when I started to reply a lot of "ermm", "maybe" and "I dunno" when a decision was demanded. Even when simple things like where you want to eat also require me a lot of time to think about it. I am always a straight person, never do things that are uncertain. It took me a hard time to have a decision made and confident with my decision. I really need to be firm, especially in this field.

Second is firm to say "NO". Maybe is just a bad habit of human, we are hard to refuse. But me particularly, weak in it. I always accept anything that come to me and too shy to say no even if I dislike the job. Eventually I have more work than I supposed to have and I need to do other people parts. This was so unfair but because I did not refuse, I need to do it. So from now on, I seriously need to learn the art of saying no.

Looks like I need to plant this word in my heart now onwards. Firm, Jacky.