Looking back 2015

Hi

I figure out that I need to release some of the thoughts that are clouding my mind, hence the post. Lack of writing makes expression in words becoming more difficult, sometimes frightening and dreadful. I really do need writing therapy to help me cope with the recent uncertainty I have to face in life. Fortunately this spiritual realm has always existed, which i am glad, despite my forgetfulness.

Looking back at 2015

There are things that I am certainly proud of, and also things that drive me mad and eventually several sleepless nights. Certain aspects in life is too much to be asked for, which leaving questions whether I am all prepared to move on or leave. Two and a half years in the company, I doubt if I will ever get use to corporate world. Nobody loves corporation and 9-5 job, that I was told. However some people seems to know how to bend around and move upwards, much like morning glory. I hate that, for I am rigid and stiff. I am not comfortable with of unspoken rules of pleasing superior, and never will. Many a day I had spent on dithering about my life ultimate passion, as I no longer sure I will be happy to continue my career as an executive for many years to come, or will I regret one day at the older days. Poor overall performance and complacency of routine job prove to be motivation killer. Sometimes I wonder if I accidentally wear invisible cloak to the office. Twice my name went missing in department's role and responsibility, twice! It become so common that my superior forget to include me in any ongoing projects, it leads me thinking if the fault is on me. I should have done better.

Nevertheless I do achieve what I consider as a major improvement in my life. The fact that this year alone I have traveled out of country for three times, is a huge achievement as I have painfully little experience in travelling. I am most thankful for my friend who showed me the fun and joy of travelling when I was in Vietnam. The vivid memories of walking around downtown Saigon, finding hidden gems in foreign country, losing and regaining direction while navigating to local train station, spending money like it was almost meant to be, were some of the most memorable memories yet. It has broaden my mindset tremendously and spiked up my courage to travel abroad. Travelling to Western Australia and South Korea were no less enjoyable either, and I see more opportunities and inspirations coming.  

What I want for new year is

I don't usually make new year resolution. For me it is a self-pity way of making unpromising commitment. Evident? January gym has the most visitors that is. But this year I want to make a pact for my myself. Here goes the list.

• Travel more
• Read more books
• Venture into online business and stock market
• Eat healthier and more into fitness

I guess that's all for now. Till next time.